High Maintenance

I'm all about training my body, seeing what it's capable and trying to keep it fit, firm and in shape. This usually helps me to stay in my training and eating routine; wake up at 06 am to do morning aerobics, to do those final reps at the gym, to push harder when running, choosing carrots over candy, etc.

But sometimes...

Sometimes I push myself too hard. If I'm sick or truly just tired and stressed out there would be more positive effects if I would just calm myself down, rest and meditate. I have my usual rest days of course, but if it's not in schedual it's hard for me to justify rest allthough I know I would need it.

I have same stubbornes with my weight (I have E.D -history, which is now-a-days awfully common). I weigh about 61-62 kg /134-136 pounds, which is fine in comparison with my height (176 cm /5,77) feet, but i have this obsession of weighing under 60 kgs. At my lowest I weighed 54 kg/ 119 pnds which was too low, but emotionally I feel that I should weigh 57-58 kg. It might be that my hormones just don't function properly  in those numbers so I'm torn in between.

All these high expectations cause me too much stress so I'm also training acceptance, failure and peace of mind. So more yoga and mindfulness for me, thanks!

But hey, I've got some good news. I've dumped the sugar and lowered my salt intake. Yesterday I've got huge chocolate and liquorice crawing which I did NOT fall. So three days of succes!